I don't know about you, but for some reason I struggle with the fundamentals of Christianity. I guess I think that I can skip those essential steps and just make it as an okay Christian. Well I had the amazing opportunity to attend my last year as a camper at Camp Hope over the past two weeks, and God completely convicted me of an overlooked step in my walk with Christ. I realized after 19 years of existence how much I truly and utterly needed the Word of God in my life. It began with a conversation about the rapture (Christ's second coming) I was talking about how I wasn't ready and how I just wanted to live my life. The guy I was talking to reminded me that wanting to live my life was not a bad thing, but focused on asking me of my purpose in wanting to live a full life. Was it because I wanted to get married for any reason other than finding another redeemed sinner who would serve the Lord with all their heart along side of me and lead me closer to Him? Did I want to have kids for any other reason than to give them over to God for His glory and purpose? These questions cut me so deep in my soul because I knew the answers to them were all other than giving glory to God. I was heart broken and soon came to the realization of why eternity frightened me so much. It wasn't as much of the attempt to fathom time ceasing to exist and living forever and ever, but more the thought of spending eternity with someone that I didn't know as well as I would hope. The only way I can truly know my Father in heaven is by avidly reading His Word. His Word literally has ALL the answers to every situation I could be thrown into! I hope and pray God becomes my All. And that I live in light of 'that day', the day I get to join my Savior in eternity!
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